Well, it has been a long time since I have written a post.... so here is my attempt.
Not much to tell you on Nathan's adoption. No answers yet on what they are going to do with out case. Not much action taken on our behalf. Frustrated..... DOES NOT even begin to describe how we feel. I honestly do not know how to feel or what to think anymore.
Are we going to have to raise Nathan from here while he grows up in Guatemala?? WOW, I hope not. BUT, if that is God's plan for our family, good. We will do just that. Nathan is our son, we love him, we care for him, we will provide for him no matter where he physically lives. We WILL see him again!
As Cooper continues to grow and change soooo fast, I think about Nathan at each milestone.... we missed and continue to miss so much with him.
~ We saw ( in a picture) Nathan for the first time when he was 2.5 weeks old.
~We brought Cooper home when he was 2.5 weeks old.
~We have only spent 2 weeks of Nathan's 3.5 years of life.
~We have only missed 2.5 weeks of Cooper's 9.5 months life.
That is a lot to take in. It breaks my heart that Nathan does not know he has a mommy and daddy that wanted to be there when he had all his first's. It breaks my heart that he does not know and feel the love and care of his own family. He does not know he HAS his own family that he can not be with, yet. How is this the best plan??? So hard to understand.... continuing to try.
Nathan is doing great! Each time someone visit's or we get an update, he just keeps getting more beautiful!!!! He is growing and doing great!!! He is loved and cared for. That gets me through.
I long for the day that I hold him in my arms again. It will be hard to let go. He will be so much bigger, he will be talking.... in Spanish. He is not the 10.5 month old I remember from our last trip. He is a walking, talking, potty trained, Spanish speaking little 3 year old boy.......
Praying our son home.....
