John Piper on Adoption....

Orphan Sunday November 8th, 2009

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getting so big... i miss him.

God is our hope...

I sit here thinking what to write when there really is nothing to write....

I think about whether or not to continue this blog, what to say, how long with this blog be needed??

As far as our case of adopting Nathan.... we need a miracle. Things are not good, we have not recieved good news in a long time. What if we never recieve good news??? Is God still good? Is He still in control?? Is God sovereign?? YES!!!! God is our hope! BUT, that does not always make this easy... it is never easy.

Nathan is good. Nathan is happy. Nathan is loved. This is God's plans for now. Where will God take us?? Where will God take our family? Only He knows... my prayer is that we continue to follow.

Thank you for faithfully praying for Nathan, our case, and us. Please continue to pray. God knows. God can move the mountains....

Our sufferings can't compare with His glory....

"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18

God has a purpose in our sufferings.....

" And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called accoding to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whome he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified." Romans 8:28-30

July.....2009

My little pointer.... He loves to point at the camera then see the picture you just took of him. He will love my camera then, I have it all the time! In these pictures, he is wearing an outfit and shoes that we sent down with his birthday package. Thanks Lisa for delivering it!

All the boys.....

Ashley said Nathan loved this dog.... Gives me hope that he will love Brock and Graycie!

The picture is foggy because of Nathan's little finger that touched the lense:)

He looks like a little man in this pictures:)

This is Nathan with a wonderful woman named Ashley. Thank you Ashley for all you have done for these children, the mamma's and the people of Guatemala this summer. You are a true blessing!

"DO NOT TOUCH MY COOKIE!!!!!!"

My handsome boy..... he is perfect!!!!

How can you keep this precious gift from us?!?!? Lord, bring him home!

Nathan's stats:

Weight-35.6 lbs

Height- 35.5"

Head -20"

Foot- 6.5"

He is a healthy little boy!

He is starting to get really active and speak a lot of spanish, which means we need to improve ours!

Below is what the mamma's had to say about Nathan this month:

He likes to eat by himself, but he does not do a good job using at spoon. He is learning to color, paste pictures into shapes. He still gets mad as other pass him by.( I think what they are talking about is when he is on a tricylce)

He is going to be my little leader! I can't wait!!!!!!

Nathan's Special Day....

God is my provider.....

God provided for Nathan and for us today on Nathan's special day today.

See how Nathan celebrated with his friends, old and new.....

http://www.john-oursonshine.blogspot.com/

Thank you Preiss Family..... You will never know the gratitude I feel towards you!!! You are a true blessing to me!!!

Happy 2nd Birthday Sweet Boy!

2 weeks .....

1 year....

Our Sweet 2 Year Old Baby Boy.....

Our baby boy is being loved on by precious people today and this week. I am so thankful for these blessings......

We love you baby boy. My heart breaks knowing we can't be with you on such a special day, but the peace I have knowing how much you are loved and cared for gets me through.

a new day....

Well, 2 years of Nathan's life is approaching, fast. So many emotions that I feel: sad, happy, mad, peace, angry, joy, numb, etc. Never in all my dreams did I see us here at this point. Never in my wildest dreams did I see us here watching our son celebrate his second birthday in Guatemala without us. Never in my wildest dreams.......

Nathan has no idea who we are, how much we love him, how much we pray for him, how desparate we are for him to come "home" to us. All he knows is his life he has lived at Eagle's Nest with the same nannies for the first two years of his life. He is happy. That makes us happy. In the picture above, Nathan is smiling. We do not get to see this often in his update pictures. But in this picture he is by himself, with his favorite nannie, Mimi. He is happy....

It is so hard to explain to others how we are doing through out this journey. God has been so faithful to us. We have learned so much, yet still have so much to learn and so many questions not answered, and may never. But getting to this point in our lives took over 5 years, so explaining is not the easiest.

When people go through trials, suffering or times of pain in their lives, sometimes there may be an end in sight. They can see the goal line, the light at the end of the tunnel. They know that it will not last forever. This journey does not seem to have an end in sight, at least here on earth. I pray we will see one soon, but who knows how long it will be. That to me, is one of the hardest parts....

Nathan turning two has been tough. Tougher than what I thought. Many people do not understand that just because we did not "birth him" or that he is not here with us physicallly, or that we are "in the process of adopting him", then he is not really our son. But if you really understood adoption, then you would really understand us and the pain. But imagine someone taking your child from you and spending AT LEAST the first two years away from him/her. The pain would be unimaginable, wouldn't it?

I never new "I" could do this. But that is the funny thing... "I" didn't. God is so much greater and stronger than us. Only by His grace and mercies do we see a new day each morning. Our hope lies in Him. HE is our strength......

where have i been??

Where have I been???? no where, still here...

I have been somewhat busy lately, not feeling real well while trying to keep up with life. I have not had much to say on here because there is not really much to say. Things do not really look good at this point with the adoption. I will not go into details for privacy reasons, but know that we DO NOT know what is going to happen. No one really knows. We are still hoping, believing and trusting that God will bring our son home to us. God is in control.

Nathan will be turning two very soon. This is hard to think about. It is hard to accept. We were wanting to badly to be with him whethere here or there, but neither are going to happen. Pray he know and feels how much he is loved....

On a different note....

Our little friend, Tucker, went to be with Jesus May 31, 2009. Please pray for his mom and dad, Courtney and Jason, and his little sis, Lily. This family is amazing. Their faith is amazing. Their strength is amazing. Tucker was amazing!! You can read more of their story on the link to the side.

One last thing.....

YOU MUST WATCH!!!! Our pastor suggested us watch this video last Sunday. I watch it today... WOW!!! What a testimony for Jesus!!! So much truth!!!! http://www.deathisnotdying.com/