tagged...

Well, I have been tagged. I am suppose to post the 4th picture from the 4th album on my computer. This picture is appropriate for the holidays coming up... just wish he was here instead of there.

he was so tiny... I am sure he would not fit in a bumbo seat this Christmas.

I am tagging Shan, Julie R, Jennifer H, Jennifer P, Deidre

thankful...

(november 2007)

Missing my boy... and "Mama". Thank you all for your prayers and support this week. It has been overwhelming.

I am so thankful for what God has blessed us with. I am so undeserving. I pray you all enjoy your time with family tomorrow... each moment. Happy Thanksgiving.

"Mama"

My grandmother went to be with Jesus today. She is walking the isle to her Father and to her husband she has been separated from for so many years.

After being sick for a short while, she passed away this afternoon. It was not our timing once again, but God's. He knew before she was sick that her days were numbered. Oh how I wish now I had that knowledge...

All her grandchildren called her "Mama". She helped raise us all. I spent most of my childhood days in her care. So many memories are flooding my mind this evening as I remember how special she was in my life. It hurts knowing She will never get to meet Nathan.

(mama and addison)

This is what she enjoyed most. Taking care of us. She desired nothing else, but to love on and care for her children. I take comfort in knowing now that Jesus is loving on her and taking care of her now. She is no longer in pain.

She was 80 years old, but a young 80. We always would "kid" her about out living us all. She was always so healthy. We never dreamed this would happen to our "Mama". I encourage you all.... take advantage of each moment. You never know when it will be someone's last.

Please pray for our family as we get through this holiday week. She has five children, 8 grandchildren, and 10 great grandchildren. She was one great mother and grandmother!

17 months...

My baby boy is 17 months old... we miss him terribly!! I wish he were here this week for the thanksgiving celebrations. I never dreamed this is how this holiday season would go.

(Thanks JT for the pics!)

After many months of thinking... after tonight, I have decided to go private with this blog and our family blog. I really wanted to avoid this at least through out our adoption journey, but due to many reasons I cannot keep putting it off.

So, if you would like to continue following this blog please add a comment in the next week and give me your email address so I can add you to the list. I am not sure if there is a limit. If any of you know, please tell me. I have never done this before:). I am not sure at what point I will go private, but soon.


I hope you all understand. This has been in the back of my thoughts for a while. Things just happen that bring them to the front and now I cannot put it off any longer.

Keep praying for that baby boy... God is not done.

worth the wait!

Case Update: Well, for those of you who don't know, we are in contact with our social worker weekly. We are receiving updates, I am just not blogging every detail. As far as where our case is right now... we are a little confused. We are trying to get some clarity and answers. Please PRAY that we we get answers soon. Pray that everyone is working together for the same purpose- TO BRING THIS CHILD HOME! There are days I do not even know if Nathan will come home- that is a REALITY for us. It is painful beyond words! There are other days I believe he will eventually come home. This gets me through, this give me hope. With where our case is going, it could even be another 6 months to a year before he is home- that is hard to swallow. But in the end, he is so WORTH THE WAIT!

Another holiday season is "knocking at our door". I do not want to answer. Can we just go straight to January 1st?? I am trying to be excited about our first Christmas in our new home, but something is missing... it will always be missing until he is here with us forever. I am also trying to focus on what Christmas is really about, and not what it is not. I would love to spend Christmas in Guatemala, but we need more answers before we make that trip again and before we leave him again. I need to know he IS coming home before I hand him back over for the THIRD time.

I know all of you who are following our journey are praying. THANK YOU. Please continue to pray. Pray that we can get direction and clarity in our case. Pray that all involved will be on the "same page". Pray for our Lawyer and his workers- pray that they do their very best in representing Nathan and us. Also pray for our sweet boy. He is growing, growing, growing. He is being taken care of so well! We are so thankful. Pray that God continues to prepare his heart for the day that he finally comes home.

Thank you for hanging in there with us on this nearly two year journey... we never dreamed we would still be here. God knew. God is here with us. He is the only way we are still here. He knows all.

The week came and went...

and it was time to go...

one of the two best weeks of our lives that I will never forget.

God blessed us with so many precious memories and one precious son.

He was so tiny...

...and he is still not home.

One year ago today...

One year ago today we saw your sweet face for the first time. We never dreamed in a million dreams you would not be here with us today. So many questions... so much hurt. But we continue to trust and pray that you will be home with us soon. You have changed so much in a year. We have missed so much in a year. We will never get this time back, but no one can ever take back the two weeks we have spent with you.

Oh how I wish I could be with you right now, but how could I leave? God please bring our baby home to us. He needs us and we need him.

holding my baby boy for the first time... unforgettable

missing you...

nov 2008

november... 2008.... he is not here....he is turning into a little boy...no news yet...