October- 15 months

2007- 3 months old; 13.6lbs; 23in

2008-15 months old; 31.12lbs; 32 in.

"General information about Jose Pablo:

He is well. He is now walking by himself, probably why his weight didn’t change much. He’ll probably get smaller now since he will be walking it all off. Likes for someone to be around him. Doesn’t like to share his toys. He is wearing size 18-24month clothes"

just me...

no, no news. no new pictures. nothing. just me...

I wish so badly (more than anyone knows) that I had good news for all of you following our journey. All I can tell you is that I know nothing! Honestly, I do not even know where our case is. I do not know who or what is in charge with the adoptions anymore. I do not think anyone does. Frustrating.... beyond words.

What do we do?..."wait". I hate that word, but it comes out of my mouth daily when I answer the "famous question". The government, here or there, does not care that we are waiting with no end in site. They do not care that Nathan is stuck in an orphanage and who knows if or when he will come home to us. They do not care that it will be two years in December since we started this journey. They do not care that our son is thousands of miles away from us and who knows if he will come home. They just do not care. Who does care?? I know God cares, but why this route?? It makes no sense.

I know all the Sunday school answers. I am tired of hearing them. I run them through my head daily while arguing with each one. At this point... no one has answers for us. This is beyond comprehension. What are You doing, Jesus?? What is the purpose??

Selfishly I want life to move on. I am tired of this roller coaster. I wish I could just jump off. Just how long is this ride?? Of coarse I would want Nathan to be apart of the "moving on". That is why we choose to continue to fight. Nathan needs us to fight. We need to fight. If we don't, who will?

Imagine giving birth to your child then the "government" taking them away and placing them in a situation like Nathan's and telling you to jump through all kind of hoops in hopes to get him back. But who knows if you really will? That is our daily lives. Doesn't sound like fun, huh?

Pray. That is all I know to do at this point. God knows what is going to happen. He is in control. He is the only thing I have faith and trust in.

Thank you for following. Thank you for praying. Thank you for fighting with us.

good nite sweetheart...