different...

I do not really know waht this post is going to say, so I am going to go ahead and apoligize for the rambling.....

Between the things God is teaching us through our own personal journey and through the teachings from church, I have really been challenge on many things to think hard about.

I am definitely not the same anymore. I see and think about all things differently. I know, for us personally, if we would have gotten pregnant the first month of trying (like most "normal" couples do) life would not be what it is today, and I am so very thankful. That probably sounds weird to most of you reading this, but when suffering and trials come so does so much more.

After being encouraged, loved on, and prayed for on Friday morning by some precious people, whom we have come to know through this, I feel renewed and re-energized. I now have fresh energy to continue fighting this battle for our son and for God's kingdom because this is God's plan for us. We did not choose it, He chose us. His plans are good.

It is a joke with us when we talk about making "plans". We decided a long time ago, that is just not for us. Who know where we will be in five years, much less 5 weeks? That is not for us to decide. That lesson was learned a long time ago:) With that being said, It excites me to think about what God IS doing in our family, in Nathan's little life. This journey is NOT "just because" or "just for the fun of it" or "just how the cards were delt" or some type of punishment". This is all God. It's all Him. It's all good, by God's definition of good. It's Not about us!

Thank you so much for enduring this journey with us. Walking beside us, praying for and with us, just loving us.

Hoping in Him.....